Trust in the LORD!

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all ways acknowledge him and he will direct your path. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

I use to read this verse and relish in it, just because I liked the way it sounded. It was music to my ears. However, faith without works is dead. So, I had faith that this verse was true, but nothing to back it up, so to say.
So, these past few days have been very trying for me mentally, physically, and emotionally. A roller coaster! I went from eating good, eating bad, great workouts to no workouts, extreme exhaustion and the innate ability to control my emotions. Yes, it’s been a hellish week! One extreme to the very next extreme!
So, what has been my beef? I wanted to compete! I felt in my heart that I would do well! I know that I have the potential! There were things that I didn’t take into consideration, the first thing being my work schedule! I work 10 hours a day, 5 days a week. My days are long and busy. Physically I can not do the things I have to! I can not survive on 6 hours of sleep a night. I realize that now! I am NOT superwomen, I am 1 one women, with one mind, body, and soul! The same way my soul gets weary, my body gets weary, and the same way mind gets tired, so does the rest of me!
I was waking up at 4am exercising, going to work, then back to the gym from anywhere from 1-1.5hr a day! I was tired, in every sense of the word, but I wouldn’t give up. I noticed that the more tired I was the more my body craved sweets and starch! I don’t believe this was a coincidence, I believe that this came directly from my lack of rest! Yes, I had a binge, it was NOT a good thing, but I did it! I also rested for the past 2 days and I feel great today.
Yes, I had pizza on a day that was NOT considered to be free. I had one piece, put the rest in the freezer and today-I’m back to normal, eating all protein as a means of detoxing! I’m excited and ready to go back to the gym today! I missed it, but I needed that rest, that down time to spend w/ my family, kick back and enjoy the weather, read, etc.
I realize now that competing will always be a goal and one day, I would love to do it, but for right now-I do not have time to invest in it and physically I can not do it, because it’s wearing me out in everyway. I have went from being sweet to being evil in a matter of weeks! It could be the lack of carbs, sleep, who knows! However, I wasn’t happy w/ the way that I felt! I was drained!
So, back to the scripture:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding, in all ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your path.
I realize now that my God knows me! He knows my strengths and weaknesses! He knows the talents he’s blessed me w/ and the talents that I lack! He knows me to a tee.
See, if I do NOT trust in the Lord and just go w/ what I know (pushing and pushing and pushing and never resting-I’m going to end up worse then when I started!)
So, I surrendered it to him! I can NO longer just lean on what I know-I have to put my trust in him and his wisdom! He knows my body better then me, why-because he made me! I’m his creation! I realize that now!
“in all ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your path.” Now, I have been acknowledging the Lord w/ my training and eating regime from the beginning of this ordeal, but I realize now that I have selective hearing.
I hear what I want and when I want. When I feel him say, “Heather, chill out today. Rest.” I say, oh no Lord! RENEW ME! YOU HAVE TO! And I’m sure he’s sitting up on high looking at me shaking his head, saying, did YOU not hear me say rest, chill out? Okay, I’ll let you have it your way and watch what happens! I did it my way and I was miserable, not just emotionally, but physically and mentally! I thought the world had a secret vendetta against me! (Here is another bit of advice-If the Lord always allows us to have our own way imagine the TROUBLE we would get ourselves into! Look out when you get your own way!)
I know now that I need to heed to the voice of the spirit and so do you-in regards to what you want to hear! What is the spirit saying and sharing w/ you?
I told the Lord, I enjoy eating my free meals! I enjoy my coffee w/ cream! I realize that it’s okay! it’s not what I do one day, it’s what I do everyday! I allow myself to enjoy my daily cup of joe, but everything else for the day is clean and on point! I enjoy my free meals and I should, but I also know that free meals should NOT be an everyday event! Period!
See, the Lord already gave us a way to eat and if we were to truly eat the way he intended, we would NOT be an obsese nation! I don’t add salt to anything, sauces, or really add anything. I keep my spices natural and use natural things to season my food and it’s great! It’s not easy, but it takes time!
So, here is my bit of advice:
Trust in the Lord and he will lead you to the exercise plan/regime and eating lifestyle that will work for you! YOU just have to trust him and be faithful! If he is faithful to us, when no one else is-why shouldn’t we be faithful to him? Have faith and trust that he will guide you to what works for YOUR body type! Ask him to place people of knowledge in your path and he will! Once he gives you a plan-stick with it! Make it a lifestyle change!
Record what you hear from the spirit! The Holy Spirit is our internal compass!!!! Why are we NOT following what he shares w/ us! (I’m guilty of this to!!) Remember God does not make suggestions-he gives truth and commandments! The bible doesn’t say, I think you can do all things through me-it says, YOU CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS YOU. (that is the truth!)
So, take the time to rest, eat clean, lift hard and heavy and above all else-be prayerful! Give him praise! ASK FOR AN ANSWER AND HELP! DO NOT LET UP! Be fervent w/ your prayer!
*Be healthy, be blessed*